Bolinao

A lot of things happened in our fieldtrip..
A lot of revelations wew revealed (siyempre..)
pero ako, I learned something really special..
Well dun ko nadiscover kung gaano pala talaga ka hot si papa jorg ko..
Well ang daming nagkakagusto sa knya..
Not only because he's hot but because there is no reason for you not to like him..(exage!!)
Para sakin he's almost perfect.. Siyempre may flaws pa din pero super minor na lang..
I like him so much..
But whenever I try to think of Gem, hehe naiisip ko ayko na lang..
Well jorg and I are good friends.. At kung kilig moments lang ang pag uusapan wala na atang tatalo sakin..
May moment pa nga na i was soo sad the wole day because of him but before the presentation started he hugged me really tight kaya ayun..
haha in gems term bawi bawi lang..
Pero gaano ko ba talaga siya ka like?
Ewan.. parang gusto ko na lang siyang ipamigay sa iba.. Dun sa mas bagay..
At dun sa mas deserving..
Ngaun alam ko na..
Hindi kani pwedeng more than friends talaga..
Sa ngaun, hanggang dito lang muna..
Pero mag didiet na talaga ko para if ever.. hehehe

magulo tong blog na to..
pano super kilig lang ako..hahaha

well, love is simply crazy.. parehas sila ni life..
Baliw.. =P

The Puzzle's Now Done..

Ive been trying to fill the missing puzzle in my life for years...
A puzzleI never thought can be done 3 days before christmas..
Thanks to our modern technology now..
Haay..
This is the story..

Ive been loving this person for years..
I met him in my second year in high school..
He was my classmate, he was even my groupmate in this subject..
I dont even know why he caught my attention but I guess my heart knew that he's the one the moment I saw him..
Well the story's long, but its like this..
The whole classroom knew that I like him, including him..
He avoided me the whole year..
We talk casually,mostly about group activities and projects..
Nothing happened to us..
We are not even friends..
But it didnt stop me from loving him..
Honestly,
the more that he avoided and the more he ignores me
the deeper I fall for him..
Its crazy..
I know..
I was really crazy about him..
The next year were no longer classmates and the year next to it..
And believe it..
He's still the one I love..
My friends keep on telling me to stop..
Since they see how he treats me..
Despite my kindness and loive for him,
he still ignores and avoids me..
And most of the time rude whenever I talk to him..
He even make silly jokes about me and laugh it out with his friends..
He hurts me most of the time..
He tears my heart into pieces..
I was damnly hurt..
But despite that,
I was still deeply inlove..
Ive felt that somethings missing in me..
Even if Im really happy..
I know somethings missing..
i even gave him a gift on his birthday..
Something that he likes that ive earned so hard..
I gave him a concert ticket as a christmas gift..
And a cute stuff toy for valentines day..
And I didnt even get a single thanks..
(Crazy..Crazy..
I know..
I know..)


Well my highschool days were over..
I thought I will never get over him..
But I did.. After sometime ofcourse..
By a friend whom is hurting me again..
( stupid fool..I know..)


And here after sometime,
I got his number and finally had a chance to txt him..
(See???Im really crazy..Hahaha..)
I know he wouldnt want to text me, that's why i decided to use another name and befriend him..
pretending Im someone else..
Luckily, he got interested and texted me back..
I can say that we can be called friends now..
I asked him all the things that Ive wanted to know before..
And he answered it all honestly..
I cant get over the feeling that were actually texting..
Its like everytime he answers each question,
he's filling every piece of the puzzle in my life..
Taking out all the pain that ive felt..
All the hurt and tears..

Well, I still think i still like him..
But no longer love him..
I cant love him anymore..
Because he has hurt me enough..
And Ive learned enough..
And now I can say, the puzzle's now done..

Disappointment..

As a college freshman, Ive been so excited and so fired up with all the Universities activities..
Wanting to enjoy and be part of each..
One of the most awaited event in the university is the paskuhan..
The annual celebration of Christmas by the university..
Higher years kept on bragging about it..
How fun, great and exciting the paskuhan is..
Im damnly excited about it..
I kept on imagining the Big night..
How fun it could be..
That my friends would stay up late and enjoy the whole night..
That itll be flooded with food lik how the older people describ it..
The great music that the bands will make..

Well time did run fast..
I didnt even notice that christmas time was here..
And the time for pakuhan was almost near..
I decided to buy new set of clothes for that Big night..
I need to look fab for that night..

Around 7pm I came..
Whn I noticed the people running and looking up in the sky
I panicked..
The fireworks display was almost over..
I did came late..
Well the bight is still not over ofcourse..
I will have fun tonight..
I look around to see my classmates..
They were hanging around there..
Sitting and talking inside our Gazeebo..
Well, I thought htey were just waiting for someone to fire the night up..
But they just stayed there the whole night..
Eating each butts up..
Damn..
Im hungry..
I need to eat..
Maybe the food will change the night's mood..
Well I choose where to eat..What fast food..
I decided..
Jollibee..
Maybe the food is good..
But when I recieved my most awaited chicken..
Its colder than Ice..
Its not even fresh..
Im getting really frustrated..
I decided to get back with my friends..
But then
theyre still not moving..
They were still there..
LAughging the night out..
I want someting to happen..
I walked alone..
Through the crowd..
Why the hell are this people enjoying??
I thought..
I heard something..
The Mc called a band..
A good band..
OOhh..
Maybe this will take my sadness away..
Eureka..
I have to call my friends so we can enjoy the music together..
We wnt there trying to have a better view of the bands..
Squeezing ourselves in..
But then,
we all lost interest..
We decided to burn the night in our seats..
Sweating our butts up..


Is this the night i have waited for so long??
Cmon..
I have wasted my time..
My time for preparation..
And my brain cells..
For thinking..